The field that im looking into is very discouraging. So many people are looking for the same thing. When i was sitting in the Teen Vogue assemblies i realized about 75% to almost all of the people sitting with me were trying to become a fashion designers as well. People tell me all the time that it is so hard to become a designer, and they say it’s all about who you know, and I do believe them when they tell me these things, but they dont know that i dont care. Just like all of those people who sat with me i have a vision of owning stores on 5th ave and a clothing line that will do ridiculously well, therefore it will be a competition. People can try to push their vision for years and years and fail, and im completely aware of all of this and i still cant wait to be apart of it and no one can understand why. It’s like telling someone to stop smoking, the person knows its bad for them and they know its killing them, but their addicted and it makes them happy, so why would they stop. Fashion is my addiction, and makes me happy ,and seeing the clothes i designed on someone else would kill me. From what i experienced at Teen Vogue U, designers have to be pushy and confident and most of the industry is filled with ruthless cut throat people that i’d want nothing to do with but none of this phases me. what im trying to say is that im ready to work for what i want, im ready to be stomped on, im ready to be looked in the eye and told that my clothes suck, and most of all im ready to fail, because you can only go so far down until you have to come up again and when that happens ill hopefully succeed. I want this so bad and i’d do anything to get to where i want and im going to do it in a way that i’ll stand out. So when people ask me why i want to be a fashion designer, its the wrong question to ask ,why wouldnt i want to be a designer. I cant wait to prove these people wrong and then see them wearing one of my designs someday. i will succeed. fuck you.
