Ive been feeling the strangest scared feeling lately. I want change so badly and im so bored with how everything in my life is going, but im terrifyed of things actually changing. I believe its because the changes that lie ahead are major and not minor. Literally everything i know will change all at once.Im overwhelmed.Im freaking out and stressed, and i cant seem to get anything in order.There is not enough time to prepare myself for these major changes. Everything will be completely different before a blink of an eye.But change is taking chances. It’s the strenghth to move on and better yourself from all your life experiences. Its the times to adventure and find new things and add on to the things you love.It’s absolutely necessary.The thing is i dont have the strenghth to move on from somewhere im not satisfied with. Some people move on to find happiness, but i dont believe moving on and changing will bring happiness. I think you have to find it wherever home is and as of now this is home, and im searching harder than ever to come to terms with the fact that i need to satisfy every aspect of my life here before i move on from everything i know.
